My view on life

The last post I wrote was about 4 years ago, and today here I am, to update my blog because just randomly to see what will happen when I put my thoughts out there (and I think no one will read this too also, hopefully no!).

Ok, now stepping foot in my first ever 20 year old in my life, I have no idea what to do next, because I have just finished my form 6, and my enrollment for public universities is still around 6 month ahead of me, and now currently i'm doing a full time job to keep the cash rolling in, although I don't like the long hour of working which is 9 hours a day for 6 day a week and 1 day off, which is today! I learnt that time is very precious and i'm trying my best to do what it needs to be done each day to achieve my goals. 

But still, despite the long working hours, I still enjoy it more than studying in school, which I don't like the most, because test is always approaching, and project is always pilling up. Also, I have anxiety issue and also a very introverted person in nature so I don't like to share my opinion to anyone to whom I just met or even close friends, so mostly I just kept to myself and my family which leads to my social circle very small and narrow. 

But despite the small and narrow circle that I have, which means less gathering, hangout, partying,  all the opinions that I don’t care about, I learn to love myself a lot more. I care myself more, I listen to my thoughts, I care the way I look, the weight I was in, the way i'm thinking, the clothes i'm wearing and the friends around me. I'm always consciously thought about every single one of them every time.

I want to share a story with you guys personally, which is looking back a couple months back in last year 2015, which is me studying in form 6, struggling to get a decent grade on my exam, because I want to receive the education I wanted from government school which is much more affordable and more credential than private colleges because it is subsidized by the government and more prestigious also. You have to earn it to enter, which is basically getting good grades in STPM all year around (3 semester)  So, I done the things that I have never done before, which is went to a local library and study after school and during holidays consistently. I hated it, but that is the most grateful things that I thank I did, because I eventually passed the exams! (Because I did not passed in semester 2 and I did poorly in semester 1, and so I retake the paper) The outcome was pretty acceptable for me, it was beyond passed and I did little above average, not good. Technically speaking, of course. I just want to share to you guys that if there is some moment where you can make some changes to yield better results, just do it, with no hesitations and no regrets. Because I saw some classmates they did not passed, and now they can’t do anything about it. I think what they can did now was nothing but just dwell, always live in the past where they would always questions themselves ‘what if ’ and filled with regrets. I don’t meant to offend them of course, btw this is my thoughts and opinion so…I got to keep it true and unfiltered.

So, let’s move on to now which is currently I’m trading time with money, all my 8 hour active time is consumed by work. After finishing my last final STPM paper I just straight go looking for a job and boom! I did not stop.

After finishing that STPM, which means I have a new focus, directions to move on, and I’ve decided to LOSE WEIGHT! I have been a fat guy for most of my life, people labeled me as ‘fat’ since I was very fat at a very young age at about 13. I was obese and overweight and has no confidence in whatever I do. So I decided to TAKE CONSISTENT ACTIONS!  Each week I will be going to the gym at least 2 times if can, and replace sugary drinks with waters, and doing cardio first thing every morning before breakfast if time allows me, depends on my shifts. After that, I still need to go to work.  My routine is that I must done all of this before work. Then with the extra time I got I would spend that time on reading business books, self help books, listening to podcast while going to work, while on a break time during work.

During these 3 month after STPM, I have loss about 10kg from 86kg to 75kg which I’m currently at right now, my goals is to reach 70-72kg, to maintain healthy weight. I have never been this kind of weight in my entire life before!

After that experience, I gained respect from fellow friends and many other acquaintance that I met long time ago, they treat me with respect, dignity and honor me.  The results that I’m getting motivated some of my friends to start getting in shape makes me felt happy, accomplished, satisfy and fulfilling!

So after so many things that I rant with you about, I just want to wrap this up with you!

TIME is everything, time is money, time is the truth, time will unfold the mysteries of the unknown overtime, time is the master of life, time will let the things that you once thought was impossible to possible! Lao Tzu once said, watch your thoughts, they becomes your actions, watch your actions, they becomes your habit, watch your habit, it becomes your character, watch your character, it becomes your destiny!

The reason I just can’t stand because I see people just wasting time on instagram, facebook and snapchat, ( I don’t even have one, and I don’t plan even having one) and complain they don’t have everything that they wanted in life while they just sit there and wish things happen to them and blame the government, blame the school, blame their parents and everything but themselves, they don’t take control of their own lives instead let lives control them, being reactive to everything, including my friends! That being said, I have very few friends, because I don’t have any topic to discuss to them. I don’t watch the latest movies, I don’t visit to the newest café’s that everyone was talking about to. I don’t try to fit in while you was born to stand out, I don’t spend my money on things that would not bring value to me personally.

 I just being me, myself, doing my own thing, and pursue my goals all the time, I always stay true on myself, I’m a big believers of compound interest, which means when little things sums up together overtime, it will become one BIG things!

So what is the one action that you can do today that leads to the BIG things that you wanted in 20-30 years from now!

Do it NOW!